n I weep...............

for the $28000 price and limited quatity of only 2 in the u.s.
Man I need more money........

droolin over...............

The puzzle.....

I was having a chat with a friend yesterday and I thought to myself how do you actually categorise people into good and bad. After all there is good in all of us and so is the case with bad (or atleast thts what we have been taught). And after a lil consideration I basically came to this conclusion more for self help than anything else but whatever. So it's like a picture or a puzzle. There are pieces in us too. So there are elements of good and bad and sometimes they are so dominating that we deem that person as either good or bad. Basically its about having a few pieces of the puzzle and being the puzzle outright. HAving elements of bad is okay , acceptable but when that "badness" overshadows you , your faults are all that is visible I guess you become a bad person. Most of all its about the extent to which you can go to achieve your desires or motives and hurt other people. That is the deciding factor for me. I've made plenty of mistakes , sure have hurt so many people but there comes a point where a line is drawn , where your conscience stops you from doing something , your heart beats wildly and you know that after doing this you will no longer be the same person , ever again. But sometimes we are even willing to cross that line and that is when we embark on a journey to hell. We keep on finding more and more pieces of the puzzle and end up capturing that clear persona of a 'BAD' person....

Angel and the devil........

No this is not a lecture on good and evil. It is however something I discovered just a little while ago. I have big time trust issues and so I was just trying to figure out how to solve this problem , how to learn to trust completely and how to get rid of my so called "buffer". There is something which might prove useful , ofcourse like all other things you'ld have to work on it. Perspire....
Have two dictionaries for yourself. + and -. And have different words and rules for each of them. For example my first distinction shall be with the word impossible. Though I'ld definitely not want this word in my + dic I think its a good idea to keep it in the - version. So to say when referring to all things positive it should be something like, 'It is possible. Impossible is nothing.' But when talking about negative stuff go, 'It is impossible. it can never happen.'
Sounds silly but if you give it a thought and actually start to practice it , it might work. Try it!!!!

PUzzled..............

Its such a weird feeling when you suddenly sense a change in someone close to your heart. Its like you have been born again and you don't know a single thing about the world , like someone just told you there is no santa claus , like you were walking just fine but abruptly come to a halt coz you no longer know the path , like someone you knew so well just took off their mask to reveal a complete stranger. What do you do then? I doubt myself coz ive been so messed up lately that maybe my mind is paying tricks on me but then what will I say about this strong intuition I am having and after all this time of not having listened to my gut feeling and failed I don't want to ignore it yet again. The worst thing however is that I don't have the slightest clue as to what I should do. Coz he's my best friend should I poke him in every way possible to make sure all is well or should I be normal and just be there till things unfold all on their own. I don't know!!
But for now I am going to try and stay calm till I have a clear answer to my question....

Dreamy Love.....

I was having a beautiful dream this morning and like all other times I woke up when the best part was about to come. Fortunately I remembered where it was going and I lay there for some time editing and scripting the fantasy. The dream gave me an idea and then my brain finished the idea for me in just the perfect manner. It was about love , making love but most of all feeling love. I had the liberty to choose my man although with an unclear face but still so lovable I wanted to hug him there and then. The best part however was that he knew all the right things to say and do to even make me utterly and completely fall in love. Tears welled in my eyes from visualising all that flawlessness. If only I could make him come true. If only someone were so sensitive to my fears and my needs , I wouldn't give a second thought to giving them my all!!!!!!

Stop being so annoying!!

Ever came across someone who's so full of themselves that you feel like puking!!

I guess we all have sometime. The sad thing is seems to be spreading like the flu. Its one thing to be confident , completely another to be arrogant and trust be smugness is a big time turn off unless you meet someone of the same kind in which case either you are a match made in heaven or u'll be at ech other's throat 24/7!!!

its commendable that we like ourselves for who we are but its horrible that we think every other person is an ogre.

"I know I'm gorgeous/handsome."

"I hope he/she will be as good as me."

"They have no clue how to dress."

"God! IT's so L.S!" etc etc etc

Isn't it sickening that inside our rooms we are bothered about our weight , height , looks , hair and everything under the sky but as soon as we step out pointing out other people and degrading them is all we do. And its comical how its the most insecure of people who think they are so much superior to everyone else. Wake up guys!!!!

The girl you saw at the mall , The boy sitting next to you at the coffee shop , The couple at the grocer's are all people like you. They deserve the same respect and love that you do.

So next time u think ur too good to be true , have a second look in the mirror!!!!!

And for all of you who think treating urselves like aces and others like jokers is confidence , buy urself a dictionary!!!!!